So here I stand, at the 1 month mark of my time back in Canada. It has been a roller-coaster, and the Lord has been teaching me so much. After 2 busy weeks in Chilliwack, I drove back to my hometown. I was greeted by the smell of fresh crisp air and I felt a tug on my heart telling me I was home. Surrounded by the country, I was overwhelmed. Spending the whole year in a city of 2 million, I had never really realized how much I missed it here, a city of less than 5000. Walking down the path, cat and dog running behind me and sitting in the meadow surrounded by trees and wild flowers... beautiful.
So I spent the night in my own bed, then packed up again and headed to camp. I was exhausted. I was exhausted from being in intense ministry for nine months, exhausted from being in the hospital, being poked and prodded, tired of tests and tired of busyness. I was spiritually and emotionally drained. I had an amazing week at camp, but still, something was missing. Something I had had before, but now, somehow was lacking.
I headed home for the weekend from camp and started doing needed paperwork and unpacking from Bolivia. It was then that I just dropped everything and cried out to God. And He met me there, the mess that I was, and spoke to me through Revelations.
He saw how hard I worked and was working to spread his good news. He knew I worked myself to the bone, but somewhere along the way I had lost sight of my first love. Somewhere along the way, I took my focus off of him and onto the people I was serving, and my love for him ran dry. He doesn't just want my service to others, He first and foremost wants my love, my heart. It hit me like a storm and I sat down and repented right there. How can I be without his blessing, how can I love, if I do not first love Him. So I decided to take a week off of camp to rest and spend a long period of time with the Lord- something I haven't done in a while. So I talked to the camp director and scheduled a week off in the beginning of August.
This past week of camp was such a joy. I no longer feel exhausted. I realize my need for a break, but the joy of the Lord is my strength until then.

Briercrest accepted my application! I feel like God has a plan in this, because he has given me confidence in this direction, so we'll see what happens in the coming years.